tapping out

perhaps the reason i haven't written in so long is because i've shared all there is to share about the complex and unremarkable city of panyu.
saw something tonight that has readied me for packing my bags and heading to a new city.
while i was walking home from my last evening class with the beloved adult students, i saw an overturned dustbin, secreting loads of waste and filth.
not an uncommon sight for the city, but caught my attention this time when i noticed something moving in amongst the rubbish - took a closer look and unfortunately, got a glimpse of a little kitty, helpless in the wreckage.
this cat had obviously been the result of a classic night of promiscuity for two of the hundreds of other cats in the area, all left to roam the streets. the dear unloved thing was then starved and stuffed into an old shopping bag, only to be thrown in a bin with the rest of china's finest squander.
this sucks. big time. watched helpless as cat lifted its head with a voiceless cry, arms outstretched, begging for a second chance while passersby gave nothing but a second glance.
this really sucks.

so this is to be expected, they say, feelings of resentment while trying to accustom yourself to a new culture and a new country. but this has nothing to do with culture and no one should accept the inability of others to take responsibility. to care for a creature that you're accountable to.

so for now i'm tapping out of panyu, moving to another city couldn't come soon enough. i'm not asking for rainbows and faeries and unicorns. and it's helpful - learning to take the good with the bad.
but my feet are itching and this scene has been tried and tired.

i really miss yangshuo.

neuter your pets, people.
and stop littering for pete's sake.
it's been a long week.