so i got fired today.
not fired, really, since i'd already quit.
just a short meeting with the principal, both of us talking at each other. stating the bluntly obvious
you're young/you're inexperienced/you need more freedom.
told him i was grateful for the opportunity to learn; was thanked for working so diligently.
nothing special, but the air has been cleared. which is somewhat nice.
shortly after the eerily familiar yet amicable split with the school, it hit me.
this is all i've wanted for two months.
bittersweet revelations as i realised that i only have nine classes left until i'm set back into the wild to, for the hundredth time, be dubbed the 'new chick'. once again.
<breaks for minute-long sigh>
not particularly elated, but not bothered either. i'm used to this.
so for the next three weeks i'm stuck in a very awkardandfilledwithanticipation kind of limbo type deal.
naturally, i'll turn to some solid books and dumplings for comfort.
at this point, i'm experiencing a weird and highly unexpected visit from mr positivity. looks like i accidentally spilled some optimism on myself.
little voices keep chanting, "the next city. the next one. you will make it your bitch." and "go tessa, go tessa" and so on. very unbecoming.
winter break soon.
maybe i'll go back to yangshuo for a visit.
looking to old faithful for some courage:
"take the pieces and build them skywards"
mon the biff !
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