messages to friends

been lacking in time and energy for a while, keeping blogging to a minimum until i have a stride in my step and put some spirit in my spirit.
in a mean time, an update through a message to a friend.

"well, as well as being on a diet mainly of oranges, bananas and cracker nuts, i'm currently a hermit.
but i'm choosing to savour every minute of it - stick it out and what not. mum offered to send some cash this way but i'm accepting no bail-outs. when times are tough, they're tough and shit's just gotta sort itself out.
halfway through the month though so i'm currently marveling at my hidden talent of self-preservation.
 haha.

 i'll check out my finances tomorrow and see if a bus trip that side is in the cards! would be delightful and very necessary buut shall have to consult my bank account. at least i'm saving 3000 rmb in yangshuo by default,right?

anyway, enough about that.
emailed ping about my issues with the school. gotta stick it out here until the new term but it's not so far away. then i'm thinking liuyang or chengdu, huai'an, even.
have heard great things from other buckland slaves. maybe kids would be better in another situation but after teaching here, i can honestly say i have paedophobia. haha.

i think my sense of humour is just a little more "passive" than running around a classroom screaming at the top of my lungs.
and i think i love english too much to teach it.
don't have patience with kids who have no regard for how absolutely bloody intriguing the language is. sick of little brats running around, demanding "games games games" when i'm throwing the most psychedelic and bewildering mind games at them with english !
this is not the least bit fair of me, since it's not their first language and they are just tiny tots, after all. thus, i have reached a conclusion - there was, nor will there ever be a teacher as just plain bad as i am.

i think i can just hide it better with adults. and the classes are more entertaining for me - better topics, more laughter. it's the only conversation i get these days anyway. despite social networking which is just not enough, man.

as for the kid who not once, but twice, said "fuck you" to a teacher? exactly what i'm talking about man.
where is the love? respect ! kids these days...
my student, austin, has taken a liking to the phrase "piece o' shiat". would try to discourage him from saying it, but. i love it too much. his accent combined with it is just. a day-maker.

buut ja, i'm babbling now. haha sorry
think moving to china has aggravated a formerly-dormant case of verbal diarrhea. shit man. anyway, made a decision cause of it - gonna study linguistics when i get home. just stoked on the idea of a new school so that i can finally start doing some living while i'm here, not just anticipating - you know?
keep in touch, dribble ! x"